The Great Big IF...: My Focus

Is it sad that I got more excited about fertilized eggs than about him?

The IF Roller Coaster

5/96: Met Mr. S on a blind date in high school!
6/00: Married Mr. S! Best day of my life thus far.
6/04: Off BC. Let's have us some babies!
5/05: Start charting.
5/06: Um, something's wrong here. Clomid from OBGYN. BFN.
7/06: First RE. diagnosed with male factor IF (low motility and count). Also, some possible female issues as well (low progesterone, elevated E2)
7/06: IUI #1. BFN.
8/06-6/07: Took 'break' after move out of state and change in insurance.
8/07: HSG, normal. Bloodwork, normal.
10/07: IUI #2. BFN.
1/08: IUI #3. BFN
4/08: 4th and final IUI. Book appointment for IVF only to discover BFP 2 weeks later.
6/08: Lost our little bean at 10 1/2 weeks.
8/08: FSH, E2, and Saline U/S normal. Male genetic testing (extended CF, Fragile X and karyotype) normal.
10/08: IUI #5, Menopur. BFN.
11/08: IUI #6, clomid and one shot Menopur. Missed ovulation...another BFN.
12/08: Final IUI #7, Menopur. BFN.
2/09: IVF/ICSI #1, transferred 2 embies: BFP with one little bean! 2 frozen snow babies!
11/09: IVF/ICSI baby born healthy and happy!
9/12: FET transfer of two embies
9/12-10/12: BFP, but ultrasound shows empty sack at 6 weeks. D&C follows. Second miscarriage.
10/12: Adoption info session. Exploring our options...
11/12: Meet with RE who talks us into one more try with IVF
2/13: Dragging my feeeeet...
3/13: Surprise! Diagnosed as having diminished ovarian reserve. Exploring Donor Eggs (except we're too poor for this right now! Ugh...)

10 Non-IF Things!

Married to a triplet, who was a Clomid baby! (Things seem to come full circle)
I move...a lot. I'm trying to get this under control, but as much as I hate to look at another box, I love exploring new places.
I love to write fiction and poetry and have been agonizing over the same novel for years now.
I lost over 90 pounds over a 2 years ago bringing me to my 'goal' weight. I've since gained A LOT back, but hope to get on the wagon again!
I live in the San Francisco Bay Area.
I have been married to the hub for 13 years, together for 17. We met in high school.
I have 2 cats and 1 dog. I would have more if my sanity allowed it.
I am an only child.
I am a school psychologist.
I am a first generation high school and college graduate in my family.

The Great Big IF...