Thursday, May 23, 2013

Today

Today, May 23rd, was once upon a time my due date. Maybe it always will be, but it's a date that is linked with a wish stopped short, rather than a wish fulfilled. Had our pregnancy continued, my life would've looked very different. But for now, it remains as it was on October 9th. There is no new life to welcome. The only tangible evidence I have that this due date ever existed is a pair of socks from surgery and some pamphlets on miscarriage. The 'almost' rather than the 'will be' is as close to my dream as we'll get for now.

14 comments:

AnotherDreamer said...

(*hugs*) Thinking of you.

mylovelosslife said...

May 23rd is my bday and I should have been pregnant with our little girl...very bittersweet day for me ((((((hugs)))))))

Egg Timer said...

So sorry for your loss. Due dates are like a big kick in the face for those of us who lost one. I hope you will soon have news of a life within you.

cheryllookingforward said...

It seems like these will always haunt us. Thinking of you!

Frozen OJ said...

*hugs*

Aaryn Rubin said...

Thinking of you...

Heather said...

Thinking of you through this. Stay strong!

Ana H said...

I am so sorry for you loss. My due date would have been May 27 andfacing it is denfintely tough. I hope that you find a way through infertility and that a baby that stays here with you is not so far away. Good luck.

Hilary said...

I am so sorry - I can only imagine how hard it is...

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Holding you in my heart.

jennandtommy said...

I can't imagine how difficult things must be for you, but i wish you lots of peace and comfort.

-Jenn, from ICLW

Kristin said...

Abiding with you and thinking of you. I hope and pray you are able to move forward and chase the dream again.

ICLW #30

Nikki said...

((Hugs))

Shelby said...

Thanks, all. :) What an awesome community.

And Nikki--how the blogosphere has missed you! (of course, I am lucky enough to get the 'real' Nikki)